Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Cliff Jumping!

At last, for your viewing pleasure, the fabled, much anticipated photographs of the South Point cliff jumping epic adventure extraordinaire! (Did I over hype myself?) All credit goes to God and to Steve Schallert who shot some sweet pics. Enjoy.

The cliffs we jumped from where somewhere around 45-50 feet above the ocean. Not a bad jump and rush. South Point is the southern most point of the US. Kind of cool, yeah?

Sorry there are so many photos, but when you jump 50 feet off a cliff...

The first series is the second jump I did, but is slightly less epic, unless you are at South Point to witness said jump, in which case this way is far more epic. Almost Homerically so, even. (And just to put this out there, Poseidon is a pansy and a jerk and can't take a joke. Athena is by far the best Olympian. Just saying.)










Now for the more epic photo series. Steve did a great job shooting these. Thanks Steve. I'll get you a coffee or something. Let me know.



























Monday, May 11, 2009

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Last week was busy, but again good. We were talking about the Bible. As can be expected, we didn't get terribly in depth in only a week. It wasn't so much about the topic last week as it was the speaker/teacher, Andrew Kooman.

Andrew was great to have leading class sessions, to eat with and hang around. He's one of those, really-smart-but-in-a-down-to-earth-sort-of-way, guys. I think most people have someone like this; if you do not, go get one to hang around. I'll wait until you get back.

....

Got one? Good. So far all our speakers have used most of their time with us in classes to lecture or teach. Peni had everyone come to the front of the room to read and he prayed for each person in class, but it was still a time of speaking that everyone was listening to, so I'm categorizing that with lectures. Andrew did brief writing workshops with the class, which meant time in class where we weren't listening to lecture, but writing creatively what we each wanted to write.

Reflecting on the writing workshop portion now, I guess we didn't devote a vast amount of time to the writing, but it felt like a lot of time, and I loved it. I loved the break from monotony of listening to lecture. I loved taking a verse from Genesis and elaborating on it to make a piece of creative [non]fiction. I loved that Andrew told us we could use talents like creative writing for the kingdom of God. I loved that I wrote something I actually like. (I will post it as soon as I elaborate and write some more of the story.)

Yesterday I went on a hike to one of the most beautiful waterfalls I've ever seen. We went to Waipi'o Valley and hiked to Hi'ilawe Falls. This is one of the best hikes I've ever done. I don't say this lightly, because I love Colorado and the Rocky Mountains. A lot. But Waipi'o Valley and Hi'ilawe Falls definitely compete with the best CO has to offer. The photos I took haven't been offloaded from my camera yet, but those will be posted soon.

I have a lot of (mostly) unrelated thoughts running through my mind; I'll write about those later.

But lastly, I'm doing research on statistics of war in Central and South America, and the Caribbean. I am looking especially for data on how wars have affected women and children in Latin America and the Caribbean. If you know any credible sources with statistics on war and women and children in Latin America, please let me know. I haven't found much yet.

More soon,

Christophley Wolfgang von Lügenstein IV [ =P ]

Friday, May 8, 2009

listen.trust.wait.patience


New, sort of experimental poem. Dealing with things I'm learning and trying to figure out. Feedback is very, very welcome.

7 May 2009

listen.trust.wait.patience

You told me first to listen. Funny how
I heard that. I thought I heard you,
so aren’t I listening? You said,
Listen. Listen.
“Speak, LORD. Your servant is
listening.”
Trust.
That’s all you said
and then I was stuck with
listen and trust. I heard
nothing else to trust you about.
Maybe you meant trust
in the general, vague, not-actually-helpful
sort of way. Why & what am I trusting
you for?...
Wait
Wait
Wait
While I don’t want to
Wait
and don’t know what to
trust
and I’m not sure I’m even hearing you when I
listen.
What am I doing? What are you doing?

Patience.

And that clears everything up. Yup.
So you want me to listen and
trust and
wait and
it all has to do with patience

while you’re not doing anything
I can see to help me? Unless
listen trust wait patience
are your help for me
and not money or people or comfort I want?

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

A Hodgepodge Jumble which is my Mind Thoughts


What if a revolution was started that was not about power, not about taking power from a person or group that has power so another group can have it instead, but a revolution that is about weakness and humility and service? What about a revolution that goes in the opposite spirit of how revolutions typically go? A revolution that finds good in being the last and the least of these? Would such a revolution be stamped out in a few minutes and forgotten? Or would such a revolution be irresistible?



I’m presently reading through the Gospel of Mark, one of the four accounts of the life of Jesus in the Bible. The author of Mark – whether is was or was not Mark – really liked to use the word εὐθύς, an adverb in Greek meaning either immediately or then. The English Standard Version of the Bible translates this word as immediately in every occurrence in Mark. This makes for very interesting (and repetitive) reading of what Jesus is up to according to Mark (or whoever). Jesus calls people and they come immediately. He immediately enters synagogues on the Sabbath and teaches. He touches sick people and they are immediately made well. The pace in Mark is not slow. And the word immediate is pregnant with meaning of action and not passiveness. Jesus is a man of quick action. In a very true aspect Mark was using a word to create flow in the narrative and to show the reader where a new sentence was starting (there were no handy things like spaces or punctuation for them…), but he does so with an adverb that expresses Jesus is acting in the world with directness.

So if this Jesus is risen and alive like I believe he is, and he is still the same, in what ways is he acting in my life with immediacy? What is he wanting to do immediately in your life?



War Dance

Wooden xylophone ringing with
organic timbre, singing at the hand
of a lost African boy longing
for his innocence back.


chop chop hack
of machetes swinging, arching, biting, hacking
rattatat bang rattat tat
of guns machining for fake power
haha ha he hahahe
of children losing childhood to

stolen heads of once father, mother,
person, whole person. Heads in pots
rather than in clouds
imagining solutions to poverty or
string theory.


There is dancing in spite of war and death
and suffering and displacement
and those who listen can
see that perhaps what the Rebels
fight for, that war is a dance
and destruction
chop chop rattat haha chop
but instead the dance of war
is singing and beating drums and
wooden xylophones
and believing the spirit cannot be killed.



The beginning of Genesis is a poem about the creation of heaven and earth and everything by the God of the Hebrews. In the poem the creation is broken up into six different “days.”

The first day light is made,
and God separates light from darkness
and names light day and dark night.
The second day an expanse between
waters – um, yeah – is made
resulting in ocean and clouds and
sky.
Day three brings land
to hang out in the seas
and the land gets houseplants
as a house warming gift.
The next day God made
the sun and stars and –

wait, a “day” is measured
respective to the sun.
How was there a “day”
on the first day?
Ummmmm….

Is there something more going down in the beginning Genesis poem?



Disclaimer: I am not writing this for pity or any selfish reason. (God, please let that be true!) I am writing this as witness to the truth that God is doing something big… and somehow I get to be part of it.

I met a man last week who knew I often feel lonely, and how I believe no one cares about me and I am alone. His name is Peni Patu. I have never met this man in my life. The PhotoGenX staff gave him a list of the names of the people in our DTS, but nothing else. No information about us. Nothing. I haven’t told anyone here about those feelings anyway, so no one could have snitched. Peni spent hours and hours praying for us and preparing for his week of teaching, and part of the time he spent was asking God to give him a personal word to give to each student in PhotoGenX. Some very personal, very unknown things were in each letter.

I have prayed and asked God to give me a word of encouragement to give to specific people, and He has spoken to me. Nothing as clear as these letters Peni wrote for everyone, but I’ve experienced this myself.

My point is God, my Father, shared my biggest, deepest, longest running insecurity with this stranger, and then I had to read that letter out loud to everyone in the group and reveal my biggest fear to the people I’m spending the next five months with. God must have a sick sense of humor. (I’m just kidding. I love His sense of humor.)

But seriously, why loneliness and other people caring about me? And why now? I’m thinking and worrying about more specific, more pressing matters. And why did He have to speak this to someone I don’t know and who doesn’t know me and make me tell everyone what I feel in the darkest recesses of my heart?

I thought those other, more pressing things were something new, and I have been slowly realizing God simply got right to the main problem. If Mark were writing about Jesus and me, it would read something like, “And immediately Jesus cut to the chase of what is holding Christopher back.” But loneliness is completely the root of so much crap in my life. You know what my Daddy got to say to me, because someone asked what God thought of me and listened?

“I am here for you, my son. I want you to come and fellowship with me whenever you need. I long for your full attention, my son, not just part of it.”

God wants to fellowship with me as His son! How cool is that?

But what if it’s not just me God wants, but everyone? And what if God is wanting and trying to speak these life giving words to us or anyone who will listen, but we are unwilling to hear the truth about ourselves, and we don’t ask to be God’s voice to our friends (or even to strangers).

What if this started changing, with more and more people choosing to listen and speak?



Until then, grace and peace,

Chris

Saturday, May 2, 2009

1 May 2009

I am now one month into the PhotoGenX adventure. So many things have happened already.
I got on a plane with almost no money...
I have seen God provide over two thousand dollars for my fees, just through other people in PhotoGenX...
I have about as much money as I came with...
I have made friends with quite a few people, some deeper than others and continuing to deepen...
I have felt feelings I am all too familiar with and am terrified of feeling, and I don't know what to do with them...
I have heard God speak to me personally almost every day...
I have been confronted about the wrong things I've done and the ways I've heart other people and God, turned around and asked for and received forgiveness...
I have jumped off a cliff after all my friends jumped off said cliff...
I have read three books for the class, and the Gospel of Matthew...
I have spent hours working in the campus kitchen and rediscovering all the ways I dislike working in kitchens, and all the ways I love working in kitchens...
I have gained clarity and become my confused than ever...
I have made long lists of things I've done...
I have found that doing something focused around God and photography and love and mercy and grace and justice and humility makes me feel alive, and that I have a great purpose for living well.

What I love, and what is very difficult, is this is only vaguely scratching the iceberg as far as everything that has happened. I want to talk about all these things and so much more in detail, but it's hard even too write an update.

And if I had just done an update tonight, it would have been about how I need about $700 in my checking account before University of the Nations cashes the check I wrote them. So I probably need it in my account by Monday. And how it addition to $700, I still need $2500 ASAP for the outreach deposit so my airfare to South Africa and back can be purchased. (BTW, I'm going to South Africa, in case you didn't know.)

The money is very important, obviously, but at the same time it actually such a small part of the significant things about DTS and this whole experience. Thus the list at the beginning. I have so much I want to share with everyone, and writing updates on this site seems so inadequate.

The other night I was talking with a good friend from Knox, and it was so much easier to articulate and speak about everything that is happening and I'm learning. So I want to do that, somehow. I'll see if there's any way...

For now, go with these thoughts. Hopefully I might have personal thoughts for many of you soon.

Under the Mercy,

Christopher